How are you all doing? Today my hope has increased since yesterday morning I have not bled. My hope in the Lord continues. I trust in him for the good things and bad to come. He is in control.
My day in bed has not changed. I'm still in bed. Trying to stay comfortable and be a mom to my son. We have found small ways to enjoy our time together. Story telling is a hit. So much so he falls asleep next to me after a zillion short stories.
I cherish the moment laying here and contemplating his little face. It reminds me when I was praying it with him. Laying in bed for three weeks to help his development in the womb. To reduce the risk of another miscarriage. I never knew but I hoped that that little boy that was growing inside would one day be in front of me. Now I am in a very similar situation with his sibling. I continue to hope and pray that this little one is strong enough to overcome and live. I recall the scripture.
"Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations Jeremiah 1:5
I believe whether you are disabled or aabled body and you are blessed to be a mother It is truly an absolute blessing to carry life inside your womb. What a true sacrifice it is to be a mother. I understand the words of my mother when I was a child. You will understand me when you become a mother. How those words resonate in my heart. She's a woman of wisdom and love. She sacrificed her body 13 times and our Lord gave her 11 children. My mother what a blessing. She showed me what it is to sacrifice because her love is true sacrifice.Her strength comes from one source and that is God the living God.
I can breathe and hope for this miracle to continue that's all I can do for now.
I finally have my OB/GYN appointment September 23, 12:30 pm. I must say that I am nervous and even a little scared. I've been there before. In a very similar situation before. I can picture the moment when I lay down on the medical bed with the ultrasound on my belly. I couldn't even feel the anguish of silence when the doctor monitors my womb. I will not be able to breath till he says what he needs to say.
For now all I can do is wait and pray.
My son Evan is my presious gift of God. It was not an easy pregnancy, delivery, and post but I am alive and he is alive and healthy.
I have learned to overcome many challenges in parenthood like those parents with their first one to become better parents.
I have truly enjoyed parenthood with my son. I see him and I draw strength from him with his sweet and compassionate ways. 
I feel so blessed to have such a wonderful family that is truly there for me in the presence of need. Therefore for person that has disability And is considered to be a mother. It is imperative to have a great support system To overcome the daily challenges. I am not saying it's easy but I will say that it is worth it when you have your child with you.
My sister Juliana has truly been one of my many sisters that have been there for me. I will never be able to repay her for everything that she has done during all my pregnancies. I hope this pregnancy will result in the most amazing wonderful experience in having another healthy child.
Please continue to pray for a positive result at the Doctor. Thank you.
God bless you!
