Scared , tiered, and overwhelmed 9/9/13

Good morning everyone,

September 9, 2013. Woke up and more bleeding started to occur.  I feel on my lower abdominal very sensitive and tender.  I have my both legs prostrated on top of four pillows.  This has seem to help stop the flow and continue with the pregnancy. I am scared for the loss of the baby. I don't know what will happen. All I can do now is continued to wait and pray. 

There are moments where I do feel Cramping sensation or a pulling sensation I can't distinguish where it's coming from but I know it's located ion my lower abdominal.  As I lay here looking above the fan. The fan helps  to keep me cool and to contemplate on many things. 

I have to stop for a moment because  cramping started. They are now calming down. I try to relax by in and Out breathing. I cry a little thinking of the harsh reality. I quickly lay down the agonizing Jesus Christ crucifix on my belly above My womb. 

Sometimes I think that this pregnancy will possibility be and in a very beautiful amazing child.  There is a slight fear and recurrent fear Of the harsh reality of losing another child. Overall I do have peace in my heart I trust in the Lord and hope for the best. I wish this morning September 9, 2013 would have been different. However I do recall during Evan pregnancy I did stay in bed for three weeks till the bleeding subsided. The medications that I'm taking now are antibiotics, prenatal and a little low dosage of aspirin. I have not gone to the doctors Yet because I do believe that they will consider doing the transvaginal ultrasound. And I know now to the research and experience the effects also can cause miscarriage because of stimulation in the cervix. 

I also know that they  would check my hCG levels Everything days to see if my Homo levels are doubling. And perhaps an ultrasound to check and see if they can see the baby and the bag. However I need to be careful and not stressing my body and risking further stress by sitting in a sit up right position and sitting in a hard position due to the fact that my jelly spilled Of my cushion. 

So for the moment I lay here and pray and try to lower any risk And stress to my body that can trigger more stress on the womb that carries my child. So if any of you read this please say a little prayer for this little heart that 

 is going inside. Thank you and God bless you and have a wonderful morning.