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I posted a video blog. But I don't know... Tech difficulty it's not showing. Either way, I wanted to give everyone an update. I'm up. Taking it easy. Will be waiting to going to see an OBGYN doctor September 23. So ill just wait... To  see the results. Thank you all for all your prayers. God bless you all!

 

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One day at time

Hello Everyone,

How are you all doing? Today my hope has increased since yesterday morning I have not bled. My hope in the Lord continues. I trust in him for the good things and bad to come. He is in control. 

My day in bed has not changed. I'm still in bed. Trying to stay comfortable and be a mom to my son. We have found small ways to enjoy our time together. Story telling is a hit. So much so he falls asleep next to me after a zillion short stories. 

I cherish the moment laying here and contemplating his little face. It reminds me when I was praying it with him. Laying in bed for three weeks to help his development in the womb. To reduce the risk of another miscarriage. I never knew but I hoped that that little boy that was growing inside would one day be in front of me. Now I am in a very similar situation with his sibling. I continue to hope and pray that this little one is strong enough to overcome and live. I recall the scripture. 

"Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations Jeremiah 1:5

I believe whether you are disabled or aabled  body and you are blessed to be a mother It is truly an absolute blessing to carry life inside your womb. What a true sacrifice it is to be a mother. I understand the words of my mother when I was a child. You will understand me when you become a mother. How those words resonate in my heart. She's a woman of wisdom and love. She sacrificed her body 13 times and our Lord gave her 11 children. My mother what a blessing. She showed me what it is to sacrifice because her love is true sacrifice.Her  strength comes from one source and that is God the living God. 

I can breathe and hope for this miracle to continue that's all I can do for now. 

I finally have my OB/GYN appointment September 23, 12:30 pm. I must say that I am nervous and even a little scared. I've been there before. In a very similar situation before. I can picture the moment when I lay down on the medical bed with the ultrasound on my belly. I couldn't even feel the anguish of silence when the doctor monitors my womb. I will not be able to breath till he says what he needs to say. 

For now all I  can do is wait and pray. 

My son Evan is my presious gift of God. It was not an easy pregnancy, delivery, and post but I am alive and he is alive and healthy. 

I have learned to overcome many challenges in parenthood like those parents with their first one to become better parents. 

I have truly enjoyed parenthood with my son. I see him and I draw strength from him with his sweet and compassionate ways. 

I feel so blessed to have such a wonderful family that is truly there for me in the presence of need. Therefore for person that has disability And is considered to be a mother.  It is imperative to have a great support system To overcome the daily challenges. I am not saying it's easy but I will say that it is worth it when you have your child with you. 

My sister Juliana has truly been one of my many sisters that have been there for me. I will never be able to repay her for everything that she has done during all my pregnancies. I hope this pregnancy will result in the most amazing wonderful experience in having another healthy child. 

Please continue to pray for a positive result at the Doctor. Thank you. 

God bless you!

Hope in the midst of uncertainty

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Good Afternoon everyone

I hope you are all well! I want to say thank you for all those people who are praying you know who you are. 

Yesterday I mentioned that there was some bleeding but during the afternoon late afternoon it stopped.  So far no blood. Thank God.   I have hope in the midst of uncertainty. 

However, yesterday Was a hard day because my body was in so much pain by laying on my back with my feet up. At the moment my sisters Cecilia  came to visit and pick up her kids after her long day at work. I just could not handle the pain anymore so I decided to sit on the edge of the bed with the assistance of my sister. As I try to relax on the edge of the bed there was a moment where I was not able to catch my breath. I felt like if I was going to pass out because my blood pressure was rising due to the fact that my body was stressed out with Physical pain. When you have the disability of quadriplegia, You can encounter having automaticdisreflexia. This condition basically means that your body reacts different when your body is under pain or stress. Since my lower body or back in the area of the kidney had too much pressure my body reacted with increasing my blood pressure.  When my blood pressure rises then I feel like someone is physically choking me and I can't breathe. It is such a horrible experience and you feel like you have no control. There was a moment where I wanted  to ask my sisters to call 911. My sister Cecilia with her calming voice, she told me to relax and this too shall pass. 

After Sitting for 10 minutes nothing was changing so I decided to go back to a Laying position. I had so much desperation I did not know how to react so all I did was cry. My sister Adriana Juliana and Cecelia said what can we do to help you. All I can say is I am in so much pain my back hurts I want to sit up  but I am afraid To bring back the bleeding. 

Everyone agreed that it was best to sit down on my chair and relax to relieve off the pressure from my back. 

After sitting  to relax I was able to relieve a lot of pain off my back and after 30 minutes of sitting down I was able to go back to bed and enjoy the rest of my night. 

I was entertained by my son Evan He enjoyed playing music with DJ music to make me smile. He is such a wonderful son. 

Today, I got my baby Doppler. I'm only 6weeks I won't be able to use it till eight weeks. However I got so excited to see it and so much hope came into my heart. I called Adriana and I asked her if I can use it on her baby. 

 Adriana and I have been pregnant before together and unfortunately we have both lost our babies. She understands my pain and my Anguish. 

I was so excited to hear her baby's heartbeat it is so strong and healthy. 

I am waiting for the OB/GYN office to call me to set up my appointment to have the doctor see me. My UTI is under control with antibiotics. The bleeding has stopped once again. I am taking one day at a time. Drinking and eating healthy. Praying and contemplating the idea or better yet the blessing of having another child. I am hopeful in the midst of uncertainty. 

Scared , tiered, and overwhelmed 9/9/13

Good morning everyone,

September 9, 2013. Woke up and more bleeding started to occur.  I feel on my lower abdominal very sensitive and tender.  I have my both legs prostrated on top of four pillows.  This has seem to help stop the flow and continue with the pregnancy. I am scared for the loss of the baby. I don't know what will happen. All I can do now is continued to wait and pray. 

There are moments where I do feel Cramping sensation or a pulling sensation I can't distinguish where it's coming from but I know it's located ion my lower abdominal.  As I lay here looking above the fan. The fan helps  to keep me cool and to contemplate on many things. 

I have to stop for a moment because  cramping started. They are now calming down. I try to relax by in and Out breathing. I cry a little thinking of the harsh reality. I quickly lay down the agonizing Jesus Christ crucifix on my belly above My womb. 

Sometimes I think that this pregnancy will possibility be and in a very beautiful amazing child.  There is a slight fear and recurrent fear Of the harsh reality of losing another child. Overall I do have peace in my heart I trust in the Lord and hope for the best. I wish this morning September 9, 2013 would have been different. However I do recall during Evan pregnancy I did stay in bed for three weeks till the bleeding subsided. The medications that I'm taking now are antibiotics, prenatal and a little low dosage of aspirin. I have not gone to the doctors Yet because I do believe that they will consider doing the transvaginal ultrasound. And I know now to the research and experience the effects also can cause miscarriage because of stimulation in the cervix. 

I also know that they  would check my hCG levels Everything days to see if my Homo levels are doubling. And perhaps an ultrasound to check and see if they can see the baby and the bag. However I need to be careful and not stressing my body and risking further stress by sitting in a sit up right position and sitting in a hard position due to the fact that my jelly spilled Of my cushion. 

So for the moment I lay here and pray and try to lower any risk And stress to my body that can trigger more stress on the womb that carries my child. So if any of you read this please say a little prayer for this little heart that 

 is going inside. Thank you and God bless you and have a wonderful morning. 

First video Blog

My first video blog. I'm in bed rest because my body went into stress with a hard cushion and a slight UTI. I'm on my 4th day bed rest. I'm 6 weeks and 1 day pregnant. I'm on antibiotic and will make an appointment to see an OBGYN to check my pregnancy and HGC levels if the are raising. 

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Paralyzed and pregnant part 2 List

When I was on my third pregnancy I constructed a list that a quadriplegic must have to have a higher possibility of a successful pregnancy. 

1. Hope, Faith, and Love

2. An extensive care of family to commit to help through pregnancy, delivery, after birth. 

3. Get informed about your options, rights, and be your on advocate. 

5. Have a team of Doctors...Rehab Doctor, OBGYN, and therapist

4.. Know your body and how it reacts 

5. Have antibiotics for bladder infection

6. If you have low mobility consult your OBGYN for low dosage aspirin to prevent blood clot

7. Prenatal, vitamins 

8. Water and healthy diet 

9. Comfortable clothing, bed, and chair.    10.  Don't stress your body physically or emotionally.